Asmongold opens up on mental health issues that led to “degenerate” lifestyle

As a longtime fan of Asmongold, I find his recent video about his lifestyle and personal struggles incredibly moving. His journey from a troubled childhood to a successful gaming personality is both inspiring and heart-wrenching. It’s clear that he has faced immense challenges, yet he continues to push through and entertain millions worldwide with his unique blend of humor, insight, and gaming expertise.


In a video posted on October 1st, Asmongold shared insights into his life, explaining the 13-year period he lived as if he were an animal, discussing his childhood experiences and mental health challenges.

Over time, Asmongold, a popular YouTuber and Twitch streamer known for his initial success in creating World of Warcraft content, has expanded his repertoire to include a variety of topics. These range from political discussions, cultural trends among streamers, and behind-the-scenes drama within the games industry.

In Asmon’s 35-minute video, he opens with, “Often people ask ‘why do others live this way, and why am I like this?’ To clarify, I didn’t start out as I am now. It’s a relatively recent development for me. It began in high school, and it progressed to phase two around the ages of 21 or 23, when my behaviors became more degenerate.

Despite not being hesitant about talking openly about his messy room, going as far as admitting he needed to tidy up after showing his living space, Hoyt has also received comments from others, including his father. Additionally, game developers have occasionally made fun of his lifestyle in the past.

As a gamer, I’ve struggled for ages figuring out the right moves, the proper way to interact with others, the actions to take, and the words to use in various situations.

In a story from his youth, Asmon explained that during a game of baseball, a fellow kid was frustrating him so much that he deliberately threw the ball with the aim to hit “him right in the face.

After the occurrence, he went on to explain that others seemed visibly uneasy, which he linked back to the moment when he began concealing my feelings.

In the conversation, the topic shifted towards high school experiences. Hoyt reminisced about never having a romantic partner during his high school years and not being particularly well-liked by girls.

He went on to say something unexpected,” he admitted, explaining that “being a level 60 warrior doesn’t seem quite as appealing to girls compared to other 16-year-old boys.

Over time, I found myself growing more at ease with being myself, caring less about others’ opinions and perceptions. As the years passed, this tendency seemed to intensify, leading me to strive for authenticity rather than conforming to societal expectations during my teenage years.

“I never chose to be here. This was not up for discussion. I just spawned in here.”

Discussing his upbringing, which was close to the poverty line, Asmon shared these memories with the audience. “During my most troubled times, I might have been among the top-rated warriors in World of Warcraft. It was exciting, though not always so in the real world.

He mentioned, “I’ve essentially let go of striving for a typical lifestyle,” further explaining, “Given my past experiences, I didn’t believe I could achieve it.

Later on, the discussion moved towards Hoyt’s mother, whom he resided with and looked after till her passing in 2021. This phase of his life, as he put it, was “quite distressing.

In his own words, Hoyt made it clear that he doesn’t care about sympathy and isn’t looking for attention. Instead, he wanted to share his story so others might understand him better as a person. Currently, he’s content, but he admitted that during his younger years, he often contemplated suicide, particularly after high school. However, the release of World of Warcraft’s Wrath of the Lich King in 2008 caused him to forget about those thoughts.

Asmongold opens up on mental health issues that led to “degenerate” lifestyle

The video frequently touched on World of Warcraft, as Hoyt acknowledged that the lessons he gleaned from Blizzard’s MMO were more valuable to him in terms of business than his experiences at business school. He expressed a sentiment that he had expected to end up with an unfulfilling job, spending his life playing video games, and eventually passing away.

Following an exhausting stint at Sam’s Club that left me yearning for a change, I embarked on my initial journey with YouTube. “I was contemplating ending it all, but instead of taking my life, I chose something equally challenging – streaming live gameplay. I started streaming to earn some cash, I was in dire need.

At the end of the video, Hoyt shared his intention for the future: instead of focusing on criticism, which he acknowledged used to greatly impact him, he plans to accept himself and find contentment in his being.

Am I capable of transformation? Perhaps, perhaps not. Ultimately, I possess full control over my personal journey, which has brought me a great sense of comfort. As time goes on, I might alter my perspective, but for now, I simply strive to embrace and savor life.

If you’re feeling suicidal or someone you care about is, remember there’s help available. In the UK, you can contact The Samaritans at 116 123. In the USA, reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. For a list of hotlines worldwide, click here for more resources.

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2024-10-01 15:48